Towards the End

This is one of those moments where you do not know what to write but you realize that you really want to write something. And you can trust the contents of your heart to weave up a beautiful narrative of what should be shared and what should yet be kept away. Let us talk about…

On Losing a Battle

I just realized that I have turned 23. And there is no turning back. An unapologetic, loud and uncompromising 23 year old. I am not proud of it, to be honest. I want to be more women-like. More filled with forbearance, more balanced with love and more sorted with obedience. But I fear that my…

A Liberating Love

One of the supreme weaknesses that Allah has created the human with is embodied in a desire to have love around him. Allah has created us to love, to desire love and to be moved towards the source of love. The more I see of this world, its days and nights, the more I breathe in…

Leaving Behind a Bougainvillea

It so happened that me and my mother decided upon talking a trip to a nursery nearby. This was today. Being a devote plant lover these trips are exhilarating and emotional for me. To walk around amidst the loveliest blossoms and lushest greens, the kind breeze running through the leaves. Even the overgrown grasses and…

Withered

And without notice, gradually, the pain subdued. Gently, unhurridely. At the mention of which your heart throbbed the hardest now failed to arose even the simplest sentiments of misgivings. Forgiveness worked that way. You didn’t decide that you forgive, concluded or made up your mind to it. But the pain just grew too old for…

Note to Self

Stop. Come back. You’ll find Me again. Do not wither yourself in this undestined search. What made you feel that this was the last time? The last time you’d lose my way and be lost forever without me. What made you feel that my guidance is for the sinless? Nay, it is for sinners. Sinners…

Endurance

I haven’t felt like writing for the past 60 days. Sometimes I pushed myself to write but it ended up becoming one of those 19 drafts, which I have all stored at the moment. I do not know where this will end up. Whether it would find a suiting place on the blog or become…

Reflections

Then your hearts became hardened after that, being like stones or even harder. For indeed, there are stones from which rivers burst forth, and there are some of them that split open and water comes out, and there are some of them that fall down for fear of Allah. And Allah is not unaware of…

Purdah

I sit down to write this on the tenth of Ramadan (eleventh now). And here I sheepishly slip in a belated Ramadan Mubarak. My dear, dear people, allow me to unroll the most disputed parchment. The most over-discussed topic- THE COMMANDMENT OF HIJAB   *drum rolls* That’s right. I have avoided that topic much. Considering that there is enough covered-and-uncovered-lollipop discussion around to deal with that. (*rolls-eyes*) Anyway, here I am with my little bag…

Homecoming

There was a moment in my life when I had given up on myself. I had given up on the fact that I can still be in this mess and survive. I knew it was beyond what I could probably handle and I already had it long enough. “Allah doesn’t burden a soul more than…