The Shape of This World

You are a sparkling memory. You, my unspoken yearning. You have an unforgettable scent. A tasteful temperament. Where did you pick it up? This scent of yours? Your lavish, pleasing drapes. Where have you been before you came in my sight? Dropped down from there and reached my heart. There, you settled. And filled my…

This Unpaved Road

I have been sitting still for eons. It has been a hard day. And boring. This is unique to my nature. I don’t dwell in that area. I always have, in the reach of my hands something to keep me up from falling into the air of melancholy. I am by His Mercy, well equipped…

In An Obscure Valley

There are times when I feel closest to RasoolAllah through my troubles and hard days I feel I can peek into his life, feel what he felt and understand the hidden rahmah of Allah. His need to seek the solitude which led him to that cave, feeling something amiss. Staying there for days on end,…

If You Are Here

Maybe sometimes we need to just stop. Stop trying, regretting and fretting. Just stop and lay down. A thousand ways you have gone wrong have already burdened your shoulders. You are bent, tired and alone. Nothing, absolutely nothing appears to be working towards something a tinge better than the present. If you are here, then…

III.(F) On the Valley of Obstacles

A long stretch of time has passed since I last picked up this prodigious book and had my lessons under the astute vision of Imam Abu Hamid (Al-Ghazali). And as the bleak frost has passed giving way again to the tide of spring, I must give way for my spirit to proceed my soul by…

Iqra

Having been brought up in a Muslim community in India, it is one of our many traditions to send our children to madarasa once they get a few years old. It is also one of the many customs which I was deprived of. It is not that my mother didn’t try. But I couldn’t bear…

Here The Journey Began

Have you not found in yourself amidst a delightful day a feeling of missing something? Something that you have lost on the way. And a sudden urgency of need to search for it? How? When? No, you know well it was not a result of your last heartbreak, nor the misunderstanding between you and your…

A Complaint

It is only when I try and fail that I remember how feeble a creature I am. How weak, how useless and utterly dependent on You even for a sorrowful sigh to pass my lips. A sigh which lays heavy on the heart and no word could do justice to it. A sigh, a gloomy…

Unfit for Love

I have always been a diary-person. Always. From the time I learnt to write broken meaningless sentences, I owned a diary. It was not uncommon for an introvert like me who was deprived of friendship and security to find a friend in my own words and a comfort in my accounts of the day repeated…

The Test of Repentance

I can’t give Mufti Ismail Menk enough credit for this wonderful lecture that I was privileged to get my hands (ears) on. The lecture was about the fake sweetness attached to sins which turns into regrets once the sin has been committed. Interesting, isn’t it? But there was something more so that caught my special…

Proudly Lost

If you don’t humble yourself before Allah, He has the means to humble you down before Him. And you can never be too cool for Islam. You can only be too ignorant of it to have that thought. There is a huge, huge chunk of muslim youngsters going in that line. And it saddens me…